When i am really bored i ... Lay down and thing for a while until i fail into a semi hypnotic state of sub-consciousness, some call it daydreaming, some call it spacing the fuck out. But i feel like i'm not here and it doesn't matter because i'm sick of putting myself in boring situations and conversations, just every day basic sitcom happenings, some call it thinking but when i'm in this particular state of mind i forget to thing and it becomes strictly observatory. I notice things very sensitively, like if i focus really hard i can see small transparent blotches of debris on the outer shell of my eyes ( or the conjunctiva ) and can only follow it as my eye moves downward. Its like watching film footage of amoeba or jelly like plankton under a microscope and when i close my eyes and look up too the sun , the bright orange redness radiates an intense picture of blood cells or what i think are blood cells and the are moving very rapidly and again i can only focus for so long before my eyes strain and i have to look away from the sun into a pillow and rub my eyes hard then i see tiny spheres of sparkling light which only stay for a second then as my eyes focus..
Kurt.
Fuck It.
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